다이아나 : Diana ♥ Rain [Bi] aka Mat Sepet ♥ Wu Chun ♥ Taufik ♥
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Behind the name Diana Probably derived from an
old Indo-European root meaning
"heavenly, divine",
related to dyeus (see ZEUS).
Diana was a Roman goddess of the moon, hunting, forests, and childbirth,
often identified with the
Greek goddess Artemis.
Diana Spencer, the Princess of Wales, was a famous bearer of this name.
taken frm *Behind the name*
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Site Stats
Blogging Since : 21st August 2004
First Blog URL : http://annahalliwell.blogspot.com
Changed to :
http://lyf-is-jz-another-illusion.blogspot.com
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. Diana a.k.a aNNa` .
. Taurus . 165 .
. short-tempered .
. easily jealous . stubborn . fussy .
. indecisive . CHARMED Freak .
. a Fiknatic .
. uses minimal make-up .
. lurves family .
. lurve my *sisters* & close fwenz .
. *Lyf is jz another iLLusi0n* .
*- makeover [bestie & sistaz]
*- pink PSP *- earn more cash!
*- my happiness [my Knight in Shining Armor] *- CHARMED DVDs all seasons and episodes
*- Road for RAIN DVD
*- Trip to Korea
*- snowglobe *- SPA - pamper myself..
*- driving license
*- Mandarin lessons
*- red or black volkswagen beetle/Suzuki Swift
*- overseas trip wif bestie/sistaz!
*- hotel rm for crazy day! [bestie] *- full body checkup
*- music box..wif the song i wan
*- bungee-jumping/sky-jump
*- G-max
*- Singapore Flyer!! *- ride DHL Hot-air balloon *- tour ard Singapore/Duck Tour
*- ice-skating
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Sunday, May 25, 2008
4:50 PM
When you love him - truly love him, how are you supposed to get over him? I've tried everything possible... but I just can't. Isn't that what true love is?
I keep telling myself that I don't miss you, and that I don't love you, hoping someday I'll believe it.
In my mind he isn't worth anything, but in my heart he is worth everything
Love is letting go, even when you dont want to. Love is letting him be happy even when it doesn't involve you. Love is being okay with just being friends Love is being able to say goodbye because you know its the best thing for him Love is letting go
Love that we cannot have is the one that lasts the longest, hurts the deepest and feels the strongest.
Letting go of someone dear to you is hard, but holding on to someone who doesn't even feel the same is much harder. Giving up doesn't mean you are weak! It only means that you are strong enough to let go!
My biggest fear is that one day we will pass each other on the streets and have an artificial conversation.
We are the perfect couple, we're just not in the perfect situation.
What happens when he's your prince charming, but you're not his cinderella?
True love leaves a memory no one can steal and a heartache no one can heal
I'm sorry for crying over you, because I said I wouldn't. But I didn't promise you that, because I knew it would be a promise I would never be able to keep.
I would give up everything for one moment with you; for one moment is better than a lifetime of not knowing you
Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do.
got this while bloghopping..
tis is wat im feeling for the past 4 years...
can i please run away and migrate or sumting?
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2:53 AM
..alhamdulilah..
i thank GOD for giving me a friend that i can talk abt everything under the sun with...
im glad i can tell her all my problems and my fears...
even abt my crazy "suicide idea"... erk...
Thanks alot Cheryl..
trust me...
im in such a huge mess right now... driven to a corner not knowing what to do now..
im so lost and confused...
my mum's cold shoulder treatment is not helping either...
same goes for that particular sumone...
can everyone please gimme a break already??
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Friday, May 23, 2008
2:20 AM
never in my life... did i ever imagine that I'll be looking forward to go to work instead of dragging my feet...
it happened earlier today...
i just simply cant wait to go to work...
to get myself busy... to get myself overly-occupied with work...
so i wont start thinking or assuming abt all toopid things...
and to top it all off...
i had an argument with my mum before i left for work...
i just cant take her naggings anymore... all her restrictions... all her assumptions abt how disrespectful i was to her...
and the ironic thing is...
i can never live my life without her... she's my pillar of strength...
but these few days... i simply lost it...
i cannot think straight anymore... i dunnoe what im thinking anymore... im just lost and confused...
im pressurised.
im driven to one corner and i really do not know wat i shud do...
one moment... my heart is telling me to slow down and take my time...
another moment... my heart is telling me to jz msg him...
but the real fact is... i just wish i can stop time and let everything just stand still... until i can catch up with my own self.
frankly speaking... i feel like im not being myself anymore.
its scary.
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Thursday, May 22, 2008
1:27 AM
i cant believe i left my bday Anderson's ice-cream in my office's fridge... urgh. Thanks to David for the belated bday ice-cream! he knew i like ice-cream... and im sooooo in need of ice-cream right now... haiz.
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that feeling is back again...
the time where i feel like im the only one trying hard... maybe its one-sided and i do not even realise it...
why am i still hanging on to that tiniest hope...?
will he realise it only when im finally gone from his life...?
his bestfren is the best ever friend a guy could ever have...congrats to his gf... i've never known a friend who would help so much just to get us together again... im so sorry i wasted yur efforts these few days...
4 years...
if after that 4 years he's still not over the fact that i hurt him the last time... then he will never get over the fact no matter how long it takes...
will i ever move on...?
hanya ALLAH yang maha mengetahui...
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Tuesday, May 20, 2008
10:35 PM
maybe its time for me blog abt my bday... its just another addition year to my age... i feel so old already. urgh.
so anyways... 2 days before my bday... Cheryl planned a surprise gathering for me...
well.. i knew she's goin to plan one... its jz i dint know wen it's goin to be... cz i got 2 dates with her that week lor.
so anyways... met Cher at vivo... was goin to "watch" Ironman lor... but then... she lured me to the rooftop... where my sistaz was already there to surprise me with their Hersey icecream... with lighted joss-sticks?? HHAHAHA...[omg. the choc so sweet can?!but thanks..haha]
den while waiting for me to finish my slice of icecream... they gave aziq her belated gift... the gift is so cute...suits her just fine... :) den its my gift...
they gave me a HHEEEEEUUUUGGEEE box... from that 'where best friends are made' bears shop... so exciting can!! den my sistaz were telling me to open it... wen i opened it... the first thing i saw was the bear's top... written "SPEED"... ALAMAK...!!!
my very own "SPEED RACER" bear can!! and they named it Rain Jnr... its legalised okay! my Rain Jnr have his own birth cert...born on the 16.05.2008. HAHAHAHA... same bday as me!! weee~!!! im so lovin` it laaa...my beloved RAIN JNR...
Thanks so much my darlingsss...~ really really appreciate it...
den we ate dinner.. bought LJS and ate at the rooftop again cz LJS was packed... camwhore session...
n we went seperate ways... thanks to Cheryl for the wonderful surprise and also for the prezzie... thanks Shafik too... nice written card... hahahaha...
so i'll show the pichas now...
Mastermind: Cheryl Accomplices: Fiknatic Sistaz (not complete) My Gain? : Rain Jnr!! n lurrrvee from my closest friends
this is when Rain [my Mat Sepet] meets my beloved Rain Jnr...awww..~~
den on my bday itself... me n bestie planned to stay at Conrad Hotel for one day one night...
it was a really fun experience...
lets jz see the pichas okay?
let me jz say...i love Conrad's pillows!! so comfyy...
and this was my bestie's very very bad attempt of taking my jump shot!! trust me...i almost died laughing becoz of it... [i tink more of dying due to asthmatic attack got la..so funny!]
after so many tries...she finally got my jump shot... hahahaha...
anyways... it was a memorable bday this yr...
many many thanks to my darlings... and to those whu've wished me... thanks...
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i really have no idea if i've blown my chances away... but i believe...i've given u and myself so many chances...
it have been 4 long years...
it took all my available courage just to send that one miserable msg.... dint expect much in return thou...
was happy that u replied... i have butterflies in my stomach wen u responded...
but u just had to ask that qns... even thou u wanted to hurt me... u could hav jz said that u hated me... and i wld have been just hurt...nothing more...
but don't u know that by asking that...it wld definitely hurt my pride..?
u kept mentioning abt how much i've hurt u... don't u know that i've hurt myself too in the process and along the way?
i've quarreled with my mum within these 4 years or more on and off becz of u... because i defended u... but will u realise how much u mean to me? i love my mum very much...yet i quarreled with her bcz of u... but will u sense my sincerity?
i guess not...
i know i kept saying that i'll stop contacting u... but i keep trying hard to contact u regardless since these four years...
but please know that... i have never apologised to a guy so many times in my life...
i was too apologetic that i sensed and feel like i've lost myself and my dignity in the process...
yet...i stayed... even thou u've really hurt me with just that one question...
trust me... this is going to be my very last attempt to try to make things up with you... if u feel that its not worth it to be my friend... den please dun bother to reply...
otherwise... u'll know wat to do...
cz after last night... i cried again because of u... i felt so tired of explaining and apologising to u... i feel so pressurized and traumatized...
i hope we can jz forget everyting and start everyting afresh...
if not... lets just take it that we shall move on from our lives from then on...
..then i shall await for wat will happen tomorrow..
다이아나 : Diana 
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