..can i call myself a LONER? or a LOSER?..
why u ask?...
i noticed dat i hav no true friends....or did i lose them thru my sucky attitude?
argh.... damn it... i hav no FUCKing idea....

i really felt like goin out today....althou im havin flu...
i msged my bestie...coz i kinda missed her...
it has been such a long time since i last went out shopping wif her...
she replied abt 1+hr later..sayin dat she's goin to escape den to sentosa wif her fren...
argh... its either her frenz...or her bf.... pffttt...~
did she forgot me or wat??? or am i jz jealous???? haiz...

msged my sis...asked her if she's free today...
she replied saying dat she's nt sure coz she's out wif her mum or at some ceremony...
dunnoe la...i forgot... but the ting is...she's bz...
so i jz told her...its ok den....
another one of my sisterz whu is alwayz bz wif sumting....
the other one... no hope liaoz la...
its either she cant go out...out wif her sister....or wif her frenz....
i miss them... hav they ever missed me? or am i jz being paranoid?

oh yah...
went to Hanyut concert yesterday...
cancelled on my sisterz coz im bankrupt n cant afford the 15bucks tix fer the nee soon 'perjumpaan hari raya'....
spent 100+ on dinner wif my family the day before....so bankrupt liaoz...
so i went to the concert @ ecp wif my Fiknatic sisterz...
had fun...
til one part of the conversation dat kinda hurt my feelings.... haiz...
dunnoe if im genuinely "invited" to the grp gathering...
or its jz a "Oops! i forgot im nt supposed to tell ppl" kind of invitation...haiz....
so i jz smiled n pretend i dun understand....
gerlz...if my presence wasnt supposed to be there....im sorry....
well...mayb its not meant for me....n im jz being paranoid n abit PERASAAN....im sorry too...
den today i msged sayin dat if they need any help...jz msged me...
n tell me how much i muz pay fer sumone's prezzie since they wanted to put all the Fiknatic's faces....
so i thought its only fair dat i shud pay fer my "face"....
but they say they actually tot of sharing among them....
haiz...
ok....i got it...i understand....
erm...frankly...im a bit hurt... but hey i understand....
sorry to disturb u guys shopping yahz!

so i ended up stayin home today...
n now i feel really really sicky....
i need a holiday....i wan to go to Genting...
i want to take no-pay leave!!!
i wan to QUIT MY JOB...!!!
i HATE IT...!!!
arghhh...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so now...i noe where i stand among my friends....
so how? shud i call myself a LONER? or a LOSER?..
haiz....
forget it...
juz ignore me...
all these is my PMS talking....~
so emotional sia....~ sianz....

eh...the quiting job part n wanting to take no-pay leave is true...haha...

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