..why does the day dat we waited for the WHOLE YEAR ended soooo fast???..
..it ended wayyyy too soon..

..i feel happy..but not dat great....haiz...
i hate feeling tis way after my bday...
its like as if my bday meant nothing...haiz...

frankly..
i've been waiting..for once..
my bestie wld surprise me wif sumting dat wld make me super happy on my bday...
but she disappointed me again n again...
its not dat i dun appreciate wat she does...
i do appreciate her n her frenship wif me..
it is...the thought that counts right?

sumtimes i jz feel...
its like...she dint go all the way to make sure im really happy...
its like...she dint crack her brains to even tink wat wld really make me happy...

maybe its just me...
being overly-sensitive...
yah...it must been dat...

each year for her bday..i wld crack my brains to create or plan sumting dat wld definitely make her extremely happy...
haiz..

bestie..if yu are reading tis...im really sorry...
im just stating wat i felt...

oh well..
thx to my lil sis...iffa for dedicating an entry for my bday..
n also my sis BB...she created a virtual card for me... nice!



only one tiny qns..why 16th March ar? hehehe...



as for tis one..its frm kak siti...my virtual bday card...thx kak!

yesterday..a day after my bday...
early morning...my mum started nagging already...
n she nagged the whole day...except wen she went to fetch my lil sis...
she pressured me..asking wat dish i know how to cook..?
when i wanna start to learn how to cook..
ok..its not dat i dunnoe how to cook...i only cook dishes dat I LIKE..! haha...
why bother cook dishes dat i dun eat...right or not? hahahaha...kidding..
i hate my mummy's naggings laa..!!
its driving me NUTS!! i dint reply watever she say...jz kept quiet the whole day...
really cant be bothered la...i gave up...
den she asked me wen i wanna plan to get married?
arghhh.....
PRESSUREEEEE...!!!!
sick man!!!

my mum...
she doesnt seem to bother if i've eaten or not...
she only bother abt my other 3 siblings...why? bcoz usually i look for food myself..
whereas my other 3 siblings...they very pampered...all ask my mum...
but doesnt my mum care to even ask?
doesnt she noe dat i haven eaten the whole day?
haiz...
i was waiting... but she dint ask...she assumed dat i've eaten...
forget it... i've lost my appetite jz tinking abt it...

jz now...
my asthma activated...
all of a sudden...i felt breathless...
quickly took my cough syrup frm the freezer to let it warm abit...
now i feel ok...after my meds...

n now..my back stil hurts...
arghhh...
i feel so useless all of a sudden...

seriously...
i feel incomplete...sumting's missing frm my life...
and i have no freaking idea wat is missing...

...the only thing that is constant is change...

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