I get knocked down but I get up again
You're never going to keep me down..~

hav been a really hectic week++ for me...
so many things hav happened...
true colours hav shown themselves...
people whom i once called FRIENDS...
were just a bunch of LIARS...

THESE PEOPLE WERE ONLY THERE FOR ME WHEN IM IN A GOOD STATE...
WHEN IM IN NEED...THEY RAN AWAY FRM ME...THEY AVOIDED ME LIKE IM A DEADLY VIRUS...
I JUST WANNA SAY...
THANX SOOOO MUCH FOR BEING A "FRIEND"...

its such an eye-opener experience for me...
i tried to cry...
but the tears just wont fall...
i told myself i gotta be strong for my own sake...
im on my own now...
i should never trust anyone...except myself...
even if they regard themselves as yur close friends...
or even worst...yur relatives...

THERE IS NO SUCH THINGS AS FRIENDS TILL THE END OF TIME...
they are there just when u are happy...rich..
wen u r in trouble...they run away...make excuses...

im just utterly disappointed n disgusted by these people...
i helped them when they were in need...
but wen i needed help... they treated me in such a way...
making LAME excuses...

its ok...we'll see who shall get the last laugh...

and "thanx" to my senior...
i got to meet him after almost 2 years...
i would never thought..he could have THAT much hatred IN him for me...
the "facial expression" he gave me was REALLY PRICELESS...
he looked at me like as if i was "dirt"...
i could never forget it...
all i could say is...

thanks for reminding me why i left u in the very first place...
thanks for making our bad memories overshadowing our great memories together...
i dint know how much i loved him till i met him that day...
initially i've never stopped loving him...
but thanks for opening my eyes..n heart wide...
dun worry...
i will never "haunt" him anymore...
trust me...
that day will be the last time he'll ever see me...

frankly speaking...
being in a relationship is never an issue for me now...
i can never see myself in another relationship for the moment...
alhamdulilah...i got thru this stage of my life with ease...
i got knocked down over n over...but i got up on MY OWN...
friends WERE never there for me..
family are never there for me..
im on my own now...

just let me live my life...
bloody hell to all the hyprocrites...

on a much lighter note..
went to Su's wedding on sunday...
sorry me n rabiah dint get to see ya..we were late...
but nevertheless..we got to see u thru Rozie's pixtures..
u looked lovely gerl..! Congrats..!
semoga hingga ke anak cucu ye!
met the other gerls...
had fun taking pixtures...
as usual...there'll always be "clicks" wherever we go...
so..somehow..me n rabiah felt outkast-ed..
yeah..watever...
couldnt be bothered also...

den after the wedding we went to visit Hakim..
alhamdulilah he hav been transfered frm ICU to the normal ward...
he look tired n worn out..but he cld stil chat wif us...
sumhow..i felt he was seeking for attention...hehehe
very cute n suweett! hehehe...
coz each time we knocked against his bed..he would groan in pain...
even if we hit it gently...he wld react that way...
den after a while...his cousin knocked the bed really hard...
i noticed he dint even say "ouch!"...aiyoo!! we've hav been tricked lahh! hahaha..
but nevermind la...he should get all the attention he wans now...
my mummy dearest told me to pass some $$ to Hakim's mother...
too bad im broke now...
but i shall help him one day....
anyway...his cousin is cute lah..hehe...
he looked kinda familar anyway...
he asked me a qns..but i dint hear...n i dun even understand his qns..
nvm la...was blur la dat day..hehehe..
n my voice wasnt helping me at all...
i sound like a man...urgh...

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