how i wish sumtimes im not such a short-tempered person...
sumtimes i do regret when i raised my voice when my parents..esp. my dad asked me (dumb) qns...
[as u all know..i hate it n wil get angry if ppl ask me dumb qns]
here's a senario..which jz happened a few minutes ago...

earlier jz now...i did asked my dad for stamps to post my application form to a certain place...n he did passed me his stamps...n all these happened at ard 9pm..
den i took a short night-nap at ard 10.30pm to 12am...
why? i dunnoe..i jz feel tired..
when i woke up..i was a bit cranky...
and this is wat my dear daddy asked me...

daddy: kak! da antar surat kau tadi? [have u sent yur letter jz now?]
me: huh? unless rumah kite ade post ofis...rasenyer dah... [huh? unless our home hav a post office...i tink i've sent it]
daddy: ade-ade je kau... [always up to sumting]
me: yelah...tk nampk kakak tdo kat sofa ni tadi? mane kakak ade kluar? [of coz lah..didnt u see me sleeping right smack at the sofa just now? i dint even went out..]

n yesh...all thru the conversation...i was kinda raising my voice...
easily agigated eh? haiz... no wonder mummy always tell me to do voice-tone check!
cant help it ar.... i know my daddy n mummy wanna show concern...
but hoe i wished they wld hav asked in a proper manner rather den in dumb qns...! hahaha.... nvm...i'll try my best to curb my anger lahh...

currently...im back to square one...
but i aint quitting...
I'LL BE BACK!!!! when im more stable dat is...
now...im just torn between wanting to be successful and the rantings of the parents/family....
so i chose to please my parents first...den i'll come back...
coz frm where i came frm...i learnt a lesson...
never ever displease yur parents...otherwise u'll never have a good ending...
i tink dats wat i got before...
mummy dearest even confessed that she dint giv her blessings... haiz...
wats so wrong abt me wanting wat i want in my own life? [geddit?u dun?den forget it!]
eitherways...im tired mentally....
have been taking short-night-naps...
den wake up in the middle of the night til wee hours of the morning....
no idea why...

where's my bestie when i need her?
haiz...
i need to go out wif u la sis!!! i miss u!!!

on another note...
i felt weird using Colgate back...
yesh...i haven been using Colgate since a few mths back...why? coz i learnt that its an acidic toothpaste... my bro was in the kitchen toilet too long la...haiz...
why use an acidic toothpaste when i've got an alkaline one right? ahakz!
[dun geddit? ask me...(",)]
and...
mummy forgot to take back her magnetic mattress...
soooo...
yay! today i'll get to sleep on it!! weee~~!!!

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