"Because Of You"

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

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ok...
tis song is soooo kind-of related to my life la...

watever...
emo-ness aside...

its the mth of Ramadan!!
fasting mth... the time to cleanse our inner sins...ahakz!
so be extra good this mth people!!
Selamat menjalani ibadah puase to all my Muslim friends..

sorry for the lack of updates...

have been really busy lately...
i tried not to switch on my pc when i reach home after work...
why u ask?
cz if my pc is on...
i'll sleep really late...
so as to avoid that...
i'll only use my pc when really neccessary lor...haha...

so much had happened over the past few weeks...
took leave to go for my driving prac...
den i went overnight-ing with cheryl and shafik at Sentosa...
slept in the kampung huts...
ours was Bug-C = Bugis C...
hahahaa...its was a MINI Kampung i tell u!!
had fun...althou work kinda spoilt abit of my fun...
so annoying...pfft...

but i managed to see sumone cute there! hahaha...
watched 'Songs of the Sea' again...
fireworks lovely as ever...
den we played sparklers on the beach...
it was super-fun i tell u!! hahahaha...
Mal came to join us but left after playing sparklers cz she gt sch the next day...

den me,cher and shafik walked ard Sentosa at almost midnight...
they played music...
and we danced like nobody's business right in the middle of the road!
hahahaha... i would love to do that again some time...
so nice...so care-free...

den we went back to our hut...
it was creepy...
cz shafik scared me!! mothertoad punyer budak!!
nanti kau...

next morning...
had our breakfast...went on skyride and luge...
den we went Vivo to watch 'No Reservations'...

afterwhich...we went back...
i was sooo exhausted...

work is getting on my nerves recently...
new management sucks totally...
i wanna change job but i must endure till end of the year...
i hope i'll endure that long...
pfft.

goin break fast wif my ite friends in the next few days and next week...
i hope all will go as plan...
i would really hate it if people are to cancel last min after confirming wif me that they're going...
because its NEVER easy to get everyone to agree on a date...

i wonder will i ever go out wif my pri sch friends...
haiz...

my Fiknatic Sistaz??
wanna break fast together??
i doubt so...
these few mths...everyone is sooo busy...
nvrmind...
there's always next year darlings!!

cant wait for my next driving prac...
i got the same driving instructor for my 1st n 3rd lesson!
Mr Chua rocks my socks! hahahaha...
its not that my 2nd lesson instructor do not rock...
he does rock! but Mr Chua rocks more! HAHAHAHA...

ohhh...
i cant wait to watch 'Enchanted' the movie..!!
coz McDreamy is acting in it!!
omg cher!! we must watchh!! hahahaha....

ok lar...
i wanna go bitch wif my collegue...
hahaha...
*red light week*...so i can bitch hor...
HHAHAHA...

taking caring peeps~!

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