Lately...
i just felt my life is goin down and i dun feel it going up anytime soon...
seriously...

mummy have been nagging eversince dunnoe when...
frankly...
sincerely...
im really really tired and all drained out...
her naggings are getting old and repetitive...
its the same things over and over...again and again...
i feel so numb and immuned regarding this...

its not that i have no respect for her anymore...
of course i love my mummy...
i know wat she is doing is all for the best...
but being overprotective have its limitation...

its just that i feel that she cared more abt what others think than what her own daughter feels...

she says im embarrassing her...
even wayy before she hears my side of the story...
which its totally unfair and unjust....
im innocent...

but im sick of debating...

im tired of hearing she say...
that i never listen to her advice...

when the fact is...
i listened to every word she says thats why im depressed now....

she's in total control of my life again...
and there's nothing i can do abt it...

relationships?
i gave up on that too...
i gave up searching...
its too tiring...
mummy's expectations are too high for me to reach...
if mummy dun believe that i gave up...
so be it...
i couldnt be bothered anymore...

its my life...
but mummy controls it...
reason being...
she knows wat is best for me...
but trust me...
she'll nvr admit that she's controlling my life...

fine...
den she can control my life all she wants...
im done trying to rebel...
im too tired...

im pressurized by all these...

work aint helping much either...
bosses and directors have been such an ass lately...
showing smiling faces...
but talking behind our backs...
cutting costs here and there...
for wat!??! for yur beer?? yur alcohol???
mothertoads...

i feel like crying...
but...
tears are all dried up...

my broken heart is beyond repair...

im badly in need of a hug...
seriously...
no joke...
haiz...

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