maybe its time for me blog abt my bday...
its just another addition year to my age...
i feel so old already. urgh.

so anyways...
2 days before my bday...
Cheryl planned a surprise gathering for me...

well..
i knew she's goin to plan one...
its jz i dint know wen it's goin to be...
cz i got 2 dates with her that week lor.

so anyways...
met Cher at vivo...
was goin to "watch" Ironman lor...
but then...
she lured me to the rooftop...
where my sistaz was already there to surprise me with their Hersey icecream... with lighted joss-sticks?? HHAHAHA...[omg. the choc so sweet can?!but thanks..haha]

den while waiting for me to finish my slice of icecream...
they gave aziq her belated gift...
the gift is so cute...suits her just fine... :)
den its my gift...

they gave me a HHEEEEEUUUUGGEEE box...
from that 'where best friends are made' bears shop...
so exciting can!!
den my sistaz were telling me to open it...
wen i opened it...
the first thing i saw was the bear's top...
written "SPEED"...
ALAMAK...!!!

my very own "SPEED RACER" bear can!!
and they named it Rain Jnr...
its legalised okay!
my Rain Jnr have his own birth cert...born on the 16.05.2008.
HAHAHAHA...
same bday as me!! weee~!!!
im so lovin` it laaa...my beloved RAIN JNR...

Thanks so much my darlingsss...~
really really appreciate it...

den we ate dinner..
bought LJS and ate at the rooftop again cz LJS was packed...
camwhore session...

n we went seperate ways...
thanks to Cheryl for the wonderful surprise and also for the prezzie...
thanks Shafik too... nice written card... hahahaha...

so i'll show the pichas now...

Mastermind: Cheryl
Accomplices: Fiknatic Sistaz (not complete)
My Gain? : Rain Jnr!! n lurrrvee from my closest friends







this is when Rain [my Mat Sepet] meets my beloved Rain Jnr...awww..~~

den on my bday itself...
me n bestie planned to stay at Conrad Hotel for one day one night...



it was a really fun experience...

lets jz see the pichas okay?





let me jz say...i love Conrad's pillows!! so comfyy...



and this was my bestie's very very bad attempt of taking my jump shot!!
trust me...i almost died laughing becoz of it...
[i tink more of dying due to asthmatic attack got la..so funny!]

after so many tries...she finally got my jump shot... hahahaha...

anyways...
it was a memorable bday this yr...

many many thanks to my darlings...
and to those whu've wished me...
thanks...

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i really have no idea if i've blown my chances away...
but i believe...i've given u and myself so many chances...

it have been 4 long years...

it took all my available courage just to send that one miserable msg....
dint expect much in return thou...

was happy that u replied...
i have butterflies in my stomach wen u responded...

but u just had to ask that qns...
even thou u wanted to hurt me...
u could hav jz said that u hated me...
and i wld have been just hurt...nothing more...

but don't u know that by asking that...it wld definitely hurt my pride..?

u kept mentioning abt how much i've hurt u...
don't u know that i've hurt myself too in the process and along the way?

i've quarreled with my mum within these 4 years or more on and off becz of u...
because i defended u...
but will u realise how much u mean to me?
i love my mum very much...yet i quarreled with her bcz of u...
but will u sense my sincerity?

i guess not...

i know i kept saying that i'll stop contacting u...
but i keep trying hard to contact u regardless since these four years...

but please know that...
i have never apologised to a guy so many times in my life...

i was too apologetic that i sensed and feel like i've lost myself and my dignity in the process...

yet...i stayed...
even thou u've really hurt me with just that one question...

trust me...
this is going to be my very last attempt to try to make things up with you...
if u feel that its not worth it to be my friend...
den please dun bother to reply...

otherwise...
u'll know wat to do...

cz after last night...
i cried again because of u...
i felt so tired of explaining and apologising to u...
i feel so pressurized and traumatized...

i hope we can jz forget everyting and start everyting afresh...

if not...
lets just take it that we shall move on from our lives from then on...

..then i shall await for wat will happen tomorrow..

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