never in my life...
did i ever imagine that I'll be looking forward to go to work instead of dragging my feet...

it happened earlier today...

i just simply cant wait to go to work...

to get myself busy...
to get myself overly-occupied with work...

so i wont start thinking or assuming abt all toopid things...

and to top it all off...

i had an argument with my mum before i left for work...

i just cant take her naggings anymore...
all her restrictions...
all her assumptions abt how disrespectful i was to her...

and the ironic thing is...

i can never live my life without her...
she's my pillar of strength...

but these few days...
i simply lost it...

i cannot think straight anymore...
i dunnoe what im thinking anymore...
im just lost and confused...

im pressurised.

im driven to one corner and i really do not know wat i shud do...

one moment...
my heart is telling me to slow down and take my time...

another moment...
my heart is telling me to jz msg him...

but the real fact is...
i just wish i can stop time and let everything just stand still...
until i can catch up with my own self.

frankly speaking...
i feel like im not being myself anymore.

its scary.

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